Insight is fascinating. To have insight into our condition is a human endeavor for self-reflective people. I think Elle's last blog was (if you'll pardon the pun) highly insightful. Her thoughts and experiences regarding insight, while you are under the cosh of delusional psychosis, really chime with my own experiences. I too have experienced flux… Continue reading Further Insights (John)
I struggle a bit with the term self medicating. To me the term suggests taking a substance for (percieved) beneficial or calming results. (John) Over the past couple of blogs Elle and myself have discussed the ideas and the term of self medicating. The quote above is from my last post. The problem is I… Continue reading Self Medicating (ii) John.
so I decided to go to bed and prepare for my mission tomorrow. I had no idea what this mission was, but it was definitely important and I was quite looking forward to it… A few weeks back I did a couple of posts about my first dalliance with psychosis. I finished the second part… Continue reading Onset psychosis (iii) John.
(=In Real Life) Starting this blog has changed the shape of my world. I used to be an unconnected island of one. I've never had a facebook page or twitter account. My mobile phone is dumb. Then all of a sudden I launched into co-writing this blog, and became connected to the whole world. The… Continue reading IRL (Elle)
I was so intrigued to read about John going home in the midst of a completely delusional state and carrying on as if nothing was happening. Some thoughts on this soon. But this was exactly what I did after my walk out over the bridge to meet the Devil. Took the bus home and carried… Continue reading Keeping a Lid On Things. Elle
I just did the funniest typo. I was hitting the brackets button, which is also the 9, and then hit exclamation mark twice, which is also 1. So the title for the post came up as 'Onset of Psychosis 911'. I love things like that! Anyhoo that's not what I'm here to write about but… Continue reading Onset of Psychosis (ii) John.
I was in hospital two and a half years ago. Since then I've had a kind of grimy time of it. I've been low and flat and I haven't been looking after myself well. I failed to eat to the point of malnutrition, and then developed TB last year. A terrible stasis kind of crept in… Continue reading Certainty. Elle
COMMENT. Narcissism helps you rise above that! Big respect Scotty for doing this blog x I’m not so so sure narcissism is the right term….but I see what you mean…. If anything its deflating the ego that helps you get over delusions. (John) "GDs are characterized by fantastical beliefs that one is famous, omnipotent, wealthy, or… Continue reading Delusions of Grandeur. John.
One morning I heard a demonic voice coming from my belly – 'I am the Devil'. I simply carried on, perhaps slightly perturbed. The next morning I heard the same voice from the other side of the room – 'Do not challenge me'… With utter certainty, in that moment, I knew three things – (1)… Continue reading Onset of Psychosis (ii) Elle
Although I'd experienced a period of paranoia and mild delusion a couple of years prior to the first proper attack of psychosis and a manic high, I'd like to write about when the condition kicked in properly. At the time I'd been misdiagnosed with schizophrenia, and so I was taking therefore taking treatment for that… Continue reading Onset of Psychosis (i) John.