Some Feedback And Advice Please. (John)

Hi, I'm on holiday in Greece just now and am typing up this blog on a phone, so pardon me if its a bit stilted. As is typical of me I'm chasing ideas at the moment. One idea is that I believe there is something in this blog of Elle and mine that could be…

The Energy Equation (Elle)

I feel that the experience of mental illness can be a journey. That's how I see it anyhow, though I totally understand those who feel that it's a static unending affliction they'd rather shake free of…. For me it's a journey, and can be a learning and growing experience. (Though perhaps it's just so painful…

Onset of Psychosis (ii) Elle

One morning I heard a demonic voice coming from my belly – 'I am the Devil'. I simply carried on, perhaps slightly perturbed. The next morning I heard the same voice from the other side of the room – 'Do not challenge me'… With utter certainty, in that moment, I knew three things – (1)…

Onset of Psychosis (i) Elle

John talked in his last post about the beginnings of psychosis for him, and the trauma that predated it. It has me thinking about the first time I became manic and psychotic. It also has me thinking about the similarities between psychosis and the dream state. But I need to go back a bit. My…

In Dreams, Remnants and Tomorrows. John.

So my subconscious found me another analogy of what being bipolar feels like to me. Variously out of control but still working hard to try and thump out a tune; with slippery ground beneath me and a serious threat hanging over my head whenever I hit the low keys. And the image is so comic…